listen to the music of the moment ♥
tell me about your room.
its my room and i spend most of my time at home in it
how many windows do you have in your room?
two windows.the sliding kind
what is the color of your walls?
green:D
hardwood floor,tile or carpet?
tile
do you get ready for the day in your room or the bathroom?
bathroom first to wash up.then room
what type of closet do you have?
tall-its from the ceiling all the way down,therefore i can hang all my clothes lol.also,its in-built(stuck to the wall kind).oh and its got a mirror
what size bed do you have?
dunno what size izit called.but its the single one person kinda bed
is your room big?
nah i think its small
is it clean?
no i wldnt consider it clean lol
what is your bedroom view out of the window?
the carpark building
what is your favorite part of your room?
every part of it hurhur
do you have the following in your room?
[x]desk
[x]cell phone
[x]chair
[x]book shelf
[x]dresser
[ ]tv
[x]computer
[ ]bean bag
[x]pictures
[x]mirror
[x]bed
[x]stuffed animal(s)
[ ]drumset
[x]clothes on the floor
[ ]plastic flamingo
[x]guitar(s)
[ ]lava lamp
[ ]smoke detector
[x]piano/keyboard
[x]locking door
[ ]can of soda
[x]bottle of water
[ ]something about your own country
[ ]medals/ribbons
[x]trophiesy
[x]awards
[ ]water polo ball
[ ]soccer ball
[ ]volleyball
[ ]basketball
[ ]softball stuff
[ ]track gear
[ ]frisbee
[ ]beach ball
[ ]football
[ ]tennis ball
[ ]hockey stuff
[ ]lacrosse stick
[x]cds(without covers)
[ ]sofa/futon/round chair
[ ]bottles of liquor
[ ]flag
[x]stop sign/any sign
[ ]caution tape
[ ]paintball gun
[ ]airsoft gun
[ ]real gun
[ ]cigarettes
[ ]snowboard
[ ]wakeboard
[ ]skateboard
[x]stereo
[x]books
[x]trash can
[x]swimming goggles
[x]jacket
[ ]pet
[x]clock
got that off deborah's blog.
sometimes,life isnt a bowl of china apple juice.
blessed be.
I'll make everything alright
didnt blog for a long time.lazy.and besides i doubt ppl are interested in reading anw.so now isnt it better i lock up the diary.and allow only some ppl to access it.this is gna be a very random post.very touchy topic also ha.
ive been really low lately.if theres a graph to show the ups and downs of life,this period of time wld prolly be the minimum pt or smthg.
many troubles nowadays.and i cant find anyone,other than Him,to talk to.myb closer frens,but its rather wrong to trouble others with my own problems.as in,id feel bad i guess.i alr feel very bad for troubling some ppl with my random complains/nonsense.
hvnt had followup with sihuihuang for a long time.im ashamed to say that my faiths wavering but i gta admit it.ive been thinking abt stuffs.and the many problems ive encountered after i accepted christ.its these random daydreaming sessions i hav very often and i start tearing.i dno why thr are many obstacles i gta face.im tired of all these.
im only fourteen and im afraid of dying.im afraid of ppl close to me dying.im afraid of receiving a morning phone call agn,telling me who passed away last night.im afraid i cant take it if another person i know close enough pass away.now that im staying with my grandpa im afraid our grandfather-daughter relationship gets closer and when he passes away,id cry very much all over agn.i gta admit im very weak mentally when it comes to this.im scared id hav a fits atk due to nthg and i die suddenly.wld anyone care?wld it make any difference in anyones life?what if im jus some insignificant person on Earth and the only One who cares abt me is God?i dont believe anyone can take anothers death so easily.cos i jus cant do it.whenever i start thinking abt them,id start crying all over agn.
talk about my wavering faith.after the lady from this church approached jol steph and i at tm the other day,i start pondering abt my acceptance of Christ all over agn.among all the religions thr mus be one true one but which God is the real God?she asked smthg similar to that.obviously ive got an answer to that.but what i was thinking wasnt jus that.if i werent strong enough,the long chat with that lady wldve left me crying outside tm in public alr.after that the three of us went ljs and thr agn i came to know abt pam's problems.and that familiar sucky feeling came back to me.i feel sad for her.but can i pray for her?and i even worthy enough to do that.hur.
myb its cos my belief in Christ isnt strong enough in the first place,but ultimately i think im a lousy Christian.natty and benedict both.however much ppl talk behind their backs,they can still spread the Word,with the mindset that they do make a difference,and not mind anything at all.the lady from tm says God wants us Christian to spread the Word.i know i cant do that.and i doubt i will ever be able to.i dunno whether im a Christian or not.no its not that i dun believe in Christ.i do believe that God loved the world so much He sent Jesus down to die for our sins.and obviously i know im sinful.myb its cos of my sins im thinking so much.myb its cos im a lousy Christian.i dunno what to think anymore.
and all that arent eh only stuffs im troubled over.thr are problems in skl as well.in class that is.i thank God for liming jol xiu sam eunice lp ys and xuanting.without them id hav given up long ago.man,izit really that hard for me to hold on along?
with all these unhappiness,i wonder how long i can manage my way thru class laughing and joking ard.i need a break from evrythg.before i break down again.
sometimes,life isnt a bowl of happiness.
blessed be.
I'll make everything alright
your 10 favorites
favorite color: all but pink
favorite food: sweets chocolates ice-creams ETC
favorite songs: loads(got this particular one thats being played on itunes currently called chu lian fen se xi by nan quan ma ma-from ruiting.its pretty nice)
favorite movies: loads as well:D
favorite sport: running(with liming chengnee and/or jolene during pe HEH)
favorite day of the week: i like all days of the week
favorite ice-cream flavor: almost all flavors are nice(those i ate before that is)
favorite countries: all la(except france.go eat ur shoes frederick)
favorite things: loads
your 9 currents
current mood: i think its mood swing day or smthg.ah i cant define my current mood
current clothes: black shirt blue shorts
current desktop: ctrl+alt+del wallpaper-"your embrace is like a soft blanket...in a cold,metallic sort of way"
current toe nail color: the natural toe nail color
current time: 1658
current annoyance: nothg.its rather peaceful here now
current thoughts: you
current song: sum 41's motivation
current "chatter": who im chatting with izit?pamela samuel gracehow and mx
our 8 firsts
first best friend: alithea
first crush: him
first movie: its a war movie.i think it was my uncle who brought me and i was very,very young then
first piercing: pri 5 or 6
first lie: cant rmbr alr
first music: my abcs/twinkle,twinkle little star(both the same tune)
first car: i cant drive.but i had this balloon-car when i was about three,counted?
first cry: i even rmbr the exact date.24th december 1991
your 7 lasts
last cigarette: i dont smoke
last drink: coke:D
last car ride: just a while ago from mrs yeo's back home
last (and current) crush: you
last movie seen: zzz mi3(hopefully watching another movie with liming soonXD)
last phone call: with my uncle(the one who brought me to watch my first movie lol)
last cd played: cd?tiao se pan(nan quan ma ma)
your 6 have you evers
have you ever dated one of your bestfriends: like date date?HAHA!
have you ever broken the laws: which kinda laws?lol
have you ever been arrested: no
have you ever been on tv: yeah,SING SINGAPORE 2002 LOL
have you ever kissed someone that you dont know: no
5 things that you are wearing: specs, black shirt, blue shorts and two ear sticks.(see,that's seven things alr)
4 things you did today: woke up,went mrs yeo's,drank coke and changed blog layout
3 things that you hear right now: chu lian de fen se xi,the sound of me typing on the keyboard and the tv
2 things you can't live without: God and you
5 people to do this quiz: this diarys locked lol
sometimes,life isnt a bowl of eggs(thank goodness).
blessed be.
I'll make everything alright
