listen to the music of the moment ♥
do not go gentle into that good night,
old age should burn and rave at close of day;
rage,rage against the dying of the light.
death may be the "good night" but it does not mean that we should acquiesce to its inevitability and succumb to death.death is like the "close of day",as it is like the closure of everyone's life,and this once again implies that it is only inevitable that we must subject to the mortality of man and accept the fact that everyone on the face of this earth will one day cease to exist.and facing this "close of day",we should actually "burn and rave",argue and fight back with intense anger and might.death is also refered to the "dying of the light" and this shows that life is like a light of the candle as the flame will eventually die out no matter what happens.also,"burn","rave" and "rage" suggest that we should keep the flame going i.e. keep life going and not let this flame die out.
though wise men at their end know dark is right,
because their words had forked no lightning they
do not go gentle into that good night.
wise men know that at the end of life death is bound to overcome them and they will die like everyone else and their wisdom tells them they cannot avoid death.however,they still do not acquiesce to death.their life has not made any impact in the world and it is probably too late to regret as they are about to die.but they still fight and not succumb to death.
good men,the last wave by,crying how bright
their frail deeds might have danced in a green bay,
rage,rage against the dying of the light.
good men weep and lament over what deeds they could have achieved,even though they only did little things which were not prominent and they were probably weak and frail.they are probably regretful as they could have done even more accomplishing stuffs in their lives,"danced in a green bay",green suggesting the living(life),and they could have been contributing to their own life by doing more better deeds.but again,even though they are regretful and sad,they still struggle against the death they face.
wild men who caught and sang the sun in flight,
and learn,too late,they grieved it on their way.
do not go gentle into that good night.
wild men,full of life and song,catching the sun,the temporal,the changing of the day(as if life is one long day from dawn to the dying dusk),and yet realize the temporal nature of their actions too late,they weep and regret that those were their only focus as they faced death.they seemed to be wasting their time and behave flamboyantly while they were alive.they enjoyed life and the temporal fun and joy they experienced.even though they ended up regretting,they still fight again death.
grave men,near death,who see with blinding sight
blind eyes could blaze like meteors and be gay,
rage,rage again the dying of the light.
grave men,who only in death with age/illness blinded eyes realize that they could have blazed with life and joy when they had time,if they had enjoyed the joys of living more.their visions of life has been warped,"blinding",as they cannot see life(light)properly.however they still can be fighting and be "gay"-happy,optimistic and still fight death.
and you,my father,there on the sad height,
curse,bless,me now with your fierce tears,i pray,
do not go gentle into that good night.
rage,rage against the dying of the light.
finally he asks his father,on the brink of death,evoking a painful acknowledgement of his loneliness because where his father goes he cannot follow,and also evoking an image almost of sacrifices.he wants his father to "curse" and "bless" him;curse him for having life and able to continue living and also bless him for that.he wants his father to fight the inevitable-death.
online analysis:
in summary it seems to me that too often much is made of thomas anger/rage at death-i believe he actually acknowledges its inevitabilty and purpose in this poem-and yet he lists why all men,whether wise,good,carefree or serious should struggle against death for the sake of it=this rings true then with slightly mythic background behind this poem which has thomas composing it as he sees his father on his deathbed apparently giving up this same final struggle.
wikipedia says:
thomas addresses wise men,good men,wild men,and grave,or serious,somber men all with the same message to pursue their passions even in the face of their mortality and impending death.the message is not to let your passions be compromised.however,we are subtly reminded throughout that their rage will be ineffectual in the face of death.it implies that one shouldn't die without giving death a battle or fighting for your life.
another explanation is that thomas watched his father,formerly in the army,grow weak and frail with old age.thus,he tries to convince his father not to give up to death without a fight.to support this,he gives examples of wise men,good men,wild men,and grave,or serious,somber men etc.
yet another explanation is that thomas admits that death is unavoidable but he encourages all men to fight death,not for their own sake,but to give closure and hope to the kin that they are leaving behind.to support this,he gives examples of wise men,good men,wild men,and grave men because these are all descriptions of his father who was dying at this time this poem was written.also,it has been historically stated that thomas never showed his poem to his father,meaning that it was more for thomas's own benefit than to convince his father to fight death.
blessed be
I'll make everything alright
i think today's english oral(o levels mind you)was a disaster.i'm quite sure i lost my distinction:(.but it's okay i guess.hopefully i didn't do really badly or anything.i cannot afford to screw up english haha.which is why i got to carry on blogging.i'm hoping it'll improve my writing or something like that.haha.
i shall just generally talk about the day:
♥:) i think i got a B for my 2.4km run
♥:] weeping really does look uncannily(a lot)like miss khoo
♥-.- i told npk about the cca thing and she wants me to collect from everyone(ah the crap i get myself into)
♥:O jianwen wants to be a gigolo
♥:( i think i screwed up my oral
♥o.0 jianwen really wants to be a gigolo
♥>.< benedict talks really loudly
♥:( i searched the yearbook and found edwen but i think it's the wrong edwen
♥:/ brendon talked to me after ages and i was reminded of how i almost went out with him
♥:X hongyi is starting to get on my nerves
♥:( i don't know why i'm upset
♥:'( then,i made myself even more upset
blessed be.
I'll make everything alright
i'm a big fat mean lousy stupid idiotic immature insensitive dumbass pathetic jerk.
:'(
I'll make everything alright
it's been such a horrid day.what with me staining my skirt and having the stupid irritating on-off cramps.then constantly embarrassing myself in class.though i have to admit,the embarrassment wasn't that bad though.thank goodness i have a class of mere twenty-eight students,inclusive me.school was okay today.i think monday is good because even though i get the monday blues(what do you expect,it's like a spoiler to the weekends),monday is short and sweet.there's two mathematics periods as well.and there are many other plus points to mondays but today was just horribly disgusting.
bought a new bottle today.from adidas..after i got home i kinda felt a teeeny weeeeny bit of guilt.i have many many water bottles at home.a red clear bottle(the current one i'm using)and a blue clear bottle(both leaking zzz),a purple nalgene,a blue nike,a blue gb bottle,and now a purple adidas.used to have this silver bottle but i think it died somewhere and i never revived it.oh well,maybe i'll use the new bottle when i buy a new bag,that is if i ever buy a new bag.
anyway it was sucky just now,that fight with my mum.i hate it when i quarrel with her.i hate how she upset me and hurt me.i hate how she treats me sometimes.i've ranted a lot just now and i've cried a lot as well.my mum just don't get me.this is horrible i hate this i hate this i hate this.i hate how bad stuffs always happen to me when i'm having my period.i think maybe it's because i'm having my period so things around me just seem bad.it's probably my mood.or maybe it's because my days are always bad it's just sometimes it gets worse and yes having my period makes my day sucky.
i'm really upset.i need to find someone to cheer me up badly.
:'(
blessed be.
I'll make everything alright
three poems.i spent effort writing those "critiques" down.this shows that i actually care about literature.i shall post my testimonial at the end of this post.hmmm,since i've posted about the three poems that i'm studying for tomorrow' test,i guess i should be able to remember them well.actually,the first two are easier to quote.but the last poem is the most evocative but the quotes are to remember.maybe i should try reciting them out loud later.HMMM...
okay,my testimonial advertisement now.a whole lot of crap to promote myself to the teachers who are going to read it.
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Kah Hui is an optimistic and cheerful person. She has a warm and pleasant personality, which earns her many friends from all levels. Her commitment to whatever she does also earns her respect from many of her peers and juniors. With her cheerful disposition, she never fails to brighten the days of the people around her.
Responsible, mature and motivated, Kah Hui is able to work independently as well as in a team. With her quick thinking, she has been adaptable in all circumstances, and dedication, motivation and sense of purpose are all clear indicators that she will continue to scale greater heights and will be an asset to any institution she attends in the future. She will be able to thrive in her future endeavors because of her disciplined nature.
blessed be.
I'll make everything alright
they shut the road through the woods
seventy years ago.
weather and rain have undone it again.
and now you would never know
there was once a road through the woods
before they planted the trees.
this road is completely non-existent now.reality is that things change and no one will ever know what happens in the past if things change drastically.this road is being shut ages ago and it is a fact and nothing can change that.the poet is being really emo about this whole road being removed thing and he's probably reminiscing about this non-existent road.
it is underneath the coppice and heath
and the thin anemones.
only the keeper sees
that,where the ring-dove broods,
and the badgers roll at ease,
there was once a road through the woods.
this road is really no more.it is buried beneath some crappy plants and even the small and minute vegetation can erase this road from everyone's memory such that only the keeper,which is probably the maker or the road,knows that the road was once there.it was once there,which means it is not there anymore.zilch.nada.zero.and because this road is being removed,the woods is being separated from humans,therefore the dove and badgers can be free to roam around and enjoy the woods without interruptions and distractions from humans.
yet,if you enter the woods
of a summer evening late,
when the night-air cools on the trout-ringed pools
where the otter whistles his mate,
(they fear not men in the woods,
because they see so few.)
you will hear the beat of a horse's feet,
and the swish of a skirt in the dew,
steadily cantering through
the misty solitudes,
as though they perfectly knew
the old lost road through the woods...
but there is no road through the woods.
nature is really pretty.during the night,it is relaxing,cooling and to enter the woods and interact with nature,it is indeed very soothing to the mind.the otters are free and they can make noise and not fear humans as they call out to each other and have fun.they are not afraid of humans as the road has been closed so long,hence they've been away from humans for so long.the horse make really light sound.and the rider is described so elegantly.it paints a really picturesque view of mother nature.it makes nature seemed so soft,so pretty,so dainty,so beautiful,so charming,so soothing,so delicate,so elegant.it is as though personifying nature to be a feminine horse rider(MOTHER nature,duh)and this rider rides the horse so calmly.this horse is like nature,so soft and steady and so elegant.mother nature seems to know really well how the woods was,is and will be.however,the poet seems to be daydreaming because whatever it is,there is no road through the woods now,and perhaps,never will be,hence the nostalgic tone in the poem.
blessed be.
I'll make everything alright
does the road wind up-hill all the way?
yes to the very end.
will the day's journey take the whole long day?
from morn to night,my friend.
a person's entire life is an up-hill struggle and it is tough and filled with trials and tribulations,hardships and struggles all the way,the whole life.life is difficult but yet poet uses "friend" to address readers.this signifies a sense of comfort and warmth even though life sucks.
but is there for the night a resting-place?
a roof for when the slow dark hours begin.
may not the darkness hide it from my face?
you cannot miss that inn.
now,life is hard.so there are of course doubts.but no worries,when the going gets tough,help arrives and no struggles no difficulties can stop the help from getting to us.
shall i meet other wayfarers at night?
those who have gone before.
then must i knock,or call when just in sight?
they will not keep you standing at that door.
everyone will face life's hardships inevitably and the help that we will get will be from people who have met with similar circumstances as us and we will be welcomed by them to learn from their trials and tribulations and be enlightened.we can get help easily as they will not shun us but instead help us with open arms.
shall i find comfort,travel-sore and weak?
of labor you shall find the sum.
will there be beds for me and all who seek?
yea,beds for all who come.
however,it is still better to find reassurance.help and comfort is definitely there when we are being faced with tough and difficult times.we have to be reassured that no matter who and no matter what,we will get all the comfort and warmth we need if we just reach out.
blessed be.
I'll make everything alright
now what is love?i pray thee,tell.
it is that fountain and that well,
where pleasure and repentance dwell.
it is perhaps that sauncing bell,
that tolls all in to heaven or hell:
and this is love,as i hear tell.
love is good and bad(fountain:water goes up,well:water comes down).love can be fun yet terrible(pleasure and repentance).love can bring really extreme(sauncing bell-symbolizes death)and this death could be good(heaven)or bad(hell)
yet what is love?i pray thee say.
it is a work on holy-day;
it is december matched with may;
when lusty bloods,in fresh array,
hear ten months after of the play:
and this is love,as i hear say.
love needs to be worked at constantly(work on holy-day),even during rest days.it is two different and opposites together(december matched with may).it could be when young men(fresh array)finds out they become dads(lusty bloods/ten months after of the play)
yet what is love?i pray thee sayn.
it is a sunshine mixed with rain;
it is a tooth-ache,or like pain;
it is a game where none doth gain;
the lass saith no,and would full fain:
and this is love,as i hear sayn.
love is happy yet sad(sunshine mixed with rain).it hurts(tooth-ache/pain).it is like a game but no one wins and no one loses(a game where none doth gain).a game where one can agree or disagree-unpredictable(the lass saith no,and would full fain).
yet what is love?i pray thee say.
it is a yea,it is a nay,
a pretty kind of sporting fray;
it is a thing will soon away;
then take the vantage while you may:
and this is love,as i hear say.
love is confusing(yea/nay).it is beautiful(pretty).love is also competitive(sporting fray)and fleeting(soon away).love means grabbing opportunities(take the vantage while you may).
yet what is love?i pray thee show.
a thing that creeps,it cannot go;
a prize that passeth to and fro;
a thing for one,a thing for mo;
and he that proves must find it so:
and this is love,sweet friend,i trow.
love stays(cannot go).it is something to be cherished and valued and of course,must be earned(prize).love is fickle and feelings change(passeth to and fro/a thing for one,a thing for mo).
blessed be.
I'll make everything alright
esfp:
entertainer,creator,logical,interpersonal
primary function:
extraverted sensing
secondary function:
introverted feeling
tertiary function:
extraverted thinking
least function
introverted intuition
population:
9.5%(8% male,11% female)
about the esfp:
♥ "for the esfp,the entire world is a stage.they love to be the center of attention and perform for people.they're constantly putting on a show for others to entertain them and make them happy.they enjoy stimulating other people's senses,and are extremely good at it.they would love nothing more than life to be a continual party,in which they play the role of the fun-loving host."
♥ "they love the excitement of playing to an audience,and they try to generate a sense of "showtime" wherever they are.performers are not comfortable being alone most of the time..."
♥ "outgoing,social,group-oriented,dislikes science fiction,does not like to be alone"
♥ "esfp like action and excitement,and are able to link together people and resources.because they accept and deal with people as they are,they are able to understand what is necessary in order to motivate them to get jobs done.they prefer a work setting that is lively,action oriented,and harmonious."
♥ "the dominant function of esfps is concerned with the reality that is perceived through the sense.this type's prime directive is to examine the tangible through taste,touch,sight,feeling and hearing.esfp's need for new experiences surely results form this function."
real esfp people:
arsenio hall comedian,
bill clinton american president,politician,bob hope actor,
cindy gliebe american vegan chef,
earvin "magic" johnson basketball player,elizabeth taylor actress,elvis presley singer/musician,actor,eva gabor actress,
gracie allen comedian,
john goodman actor,
kathy lee glifford actress,singer,kyle petty nascar driver,
marilyn monroe actor,singer,model,mary lou retton gymnast,
pablo picasso spanish painter,sculptor,peter kay writer,actor,comedian,
ronald reagan american president,actor,
saint mark apostle,evagelist,
willard scott media personality
fictional esfp:
clementine kruczynski eternal sunshine of the spotless mind,cody step by step,
frado godfather,
homer simpson the simpsons(LOL),
kelly bundy married with children,
mrs. pumphrey all creatures great and small,
peggy bundy married with children,
peter griffin family guy,
tim taylor home improvement
esfp career matches:
(esfps are often happy with the following jobs which tend to match well with the entertainer/creator personality)
actor,administrative assistant,artist,
child care,church worker,coach,comedian,computer programmer,computer specialist,consultant,
engineer,entrepreneuer,
fashion designer,
human resources,
interior decorator,
lawyer/attorney,
marketer,military,musician,
painter,photographer,psychologist/counselor,
receptionist,recreation worker,
sales representative,scientist,social worker,supervisor,systems analyst,
technical specialist,trainer
***
wanted to post the different intelligences down and their characteristics and career matches etc but decided against it.since it's a waste of my time and this whole thing is actually digressing me from my math.i ought to be shot.i still got the stupid testimonial to write and it's kinda bugging me now grr.and i haven't bathed(i think i stink).i'm supposed to be at service now but due to some timing problems and such,i couldn't go church grrrr.if i'm not wrong,my dad's gonna get me a new phone asap.and again if i'm not wrong,we all have to go visit grandma later.HMMM MAYBE I CAN GET MYSELF OUT OF THIS...
blessed be
I'll make everything alright
a little girl was talking to her teacher about whales.
the teacher said it was physically impossible for a whale to swallow a human because even though it was a very large mammal its throat was very small.
the little girl stated that jonah was swallowed by a whale.
irritated,the teacher reiterated that a whale could not swallow a human;it was physically impossible.
the little girl said,"when i get to heaven i will ask jonah."
the teacher asked,"what if jonah went to hell?"
the little girl replied,"then you ask him."
a kindergarten teacher was observing her classroom of children while they were drawing.she would occasionally walk around to see each child's work.
as she got to one little girl who was working diligently,she asked what the drawing was.
the girl replied,"i'm drawing God."
the teaher paused and said,"but no one knows what God looks like."
without missing a beat,or looking up from her drawing,the girl replied,"they will in a minute."
a sunday school teacher was discussing the ten commandments with her five and six year olds.
after explaining the commandment to honor thy father and thy mother,she asked,"is there a commandment that teaches us how to treat our brothers and sisters?"
without missing a beat one little boy answered,"thou shall not kill."
one day a little girl was sitting and watching her mother do the dishes at the kitchen sink.she suddenly noticed that her mother had several strands of white hair sticking out in contrast on her brunette head.
she looked at her mother inquisitively and asked,"why are some of your hair white,mum?"
her mother replied,"well,every time that you do something wrong and make me cry or unhappy,one of my hairs turns white."
the little girl thought about this revelation for a while and then said,"mum,how come all of grandma's hairs are white?"
the children had all been photographed,and the teacher was trying to persuade them each to buy a copy of the group picture.
"just think how nice it will be to look at it when you are all grown up and say,'there's jennifer,she's a lawyer' or 'that's michael,he's a doctor'."
a small voice at the back of the room rang out,"and there's the teacher,she's dead."
a teacher was giving a lesson on the circulation of the blood.trying to make the matter clearer,she said,"now,class,if i stood on my head,the blood,as you know,would run into it,and i would turn red in the face."
"yes,"the class said.
"then why is it that while i'm standing upright in the ordinary position the blood doesn't run into my feet?"
a little fellow shouted,"because you feet ain't empty."
the children were lined up in the cafeteria of a catholic elementary school for lunch.at the head of the table was a large pile of apples.the nun made a note,and posted on the aple tray:
"take only one.God is watching."
moving further along the lunch line,at the other end of the table was a large pile of chocolate chip cookies.
a child had written a note,"take all you want.God is watching the apples."
blessed be.
I'll make everything alright
GAHHHH MY TONGUE IS BLEEEEEDING!!!!!
:'(
I'll make everything alright
there are several other posters with different languages but i cannot upload them onto imageshack because of the file format.okayy,maybe the next post i'll upload them straight and i won't need to use imageshack.BUT I'M LAZY!:/
watched the simpsons movie with my sister yesterday.dad fetched us to bugis only for us to find out that the movie wasn't showing.then my mum called her friend then we found out the cinemas at plaza singapura and tiong bahru shopping center(?) were showing it.we went to the latter.the show's extremely good.the simpsons are really funny.I REALLY LOVE THE SHOW.ANYONE WANNA SPONSOR ME TO WATCH AGAIN?AND I GOT TO SEE BART'S PRIVATE PART LMAO.the show's super hilarious.i'll try keep in mind to tune in to channel five on saturdays at seven pm haha:D
after we watched the movie my sister and i walked around and the place really sucks.nowhere nice to see and nothing nice etc.i bought two pair of earrings on impulse but it's okay i don't dislike them.then dad went over to fetch us.we went central,this new shopping mall at clarke quay.i wanna go there again!WITH MONEY!that place is really cool.the hokkaido ice-cream rocks.i had banana chocolate and strawberry & blueberry.my sister had green tea and milk chocolate.one cup of two scoops cost like five dollars plus i think.it may seem expensive but the ice-cream tasted great!i wanna go try again again again!the mall isn't fully done yet,with all the empty shop units and all.but still,the shops available there are so nice!a lot of japanese stuffs.like imported from japan.the japanese supermarket had drinks which were really expensive(because of the import fee)and then there's the black coke.it's coke in a bottle with this black wrapping.mrs lam showed us a picture of this promoter in japan giving out free samples of it when she went japan to visit her cousin.so cool.OH there's also this shop selling nice dresses and all!there's also this shop selling papers and cards.so nice so nice so nice!the next time it's someone's birthday and i think it's important i'll go there to get a card!haha:D.and what's even cooler is that the mall faces the singapore river!it's like you can go out and sit by the side(designated seats of course)and enjoy the scenery!
gosh i sound like the mall paid me to say all that.anyway,the day before yesterday was national day celebration at school.we all had to wear a red top with the school's white skirt/pants.sucks i tell you.it looks terrible ugly.jolene bought the giordano basics and ended up wearing another red shirt.which was why i didn't get it.it's tight fitting and it'll look disgusting with the school skirt.oh well,the celebration was okay.nothing much to it also.it's my first time watching the school's ndp.not too bad.the gb contingent were pretty good,in my opinion.as in,they weren't lousy like messy and all.they were good!haha.the cheer and face painting competition was pretty nonsensical i must say haha.AND I SUDDENLY REALIZED THE RED ADIDAS SHIRT KINDA WASTED MY MONEY BECAUSE I COULD HAVE WORN THE SEC THREE 2006 GB MAROON POLO TEE BECAUSE MAROON IS RED IS MAROON IS RED!#$@#$%^@!#$%^&*($#?!?!?!
after the parade,i walked downhill with liming and she went back home.then we went to suntec!we had kenny rogers roasters for lunch!YUM I LOVE THE CHEESE AHA!then we walked around and i got the birthday gift!we walked a lot a lot a lot!haha!walked till my legs ached.we saw this puma bag i really like and it costs like 79S$ so i don't know whether i should save up for the bag now,or the evergirl,or prom.GRRR!after that we took a bus home.actually,the whole time i was kinda mood-swingy.started off with me angry then throwing tantrums,then after that it was well then i got moody and etc.i forgot how many times i got angry and mad and all.ohman i must be getting detestable:(
today's been a hot day.it started off hot,literally.i was feeling really hot and stuffy in the morning because the stupid fan wasn't blowing much of me grr.then the day got hotter:D:D.and the weather was hot as well.lunch was hot,as in tom yam spicy hot.then when i went home i bathed with hot water.ok the last part makes no sense but i'm just trying to emphasize that it's been a hot day.OKAY,IT'S BEEN A GREAT DAY WITH LOTS OF FUN AND EXCITEMENT AND GREAT COMPANY AND FUN AND EXCITEMENT AND GREAT FUN AND MORE EXCITEMENT...
tomorrow's saturday.this stupid five-day weekend is coming to a close soon!i hate this!i thought i had five days,now i'm left with two.and i promised myself i'd study.i only managed to do the kinematics and relative velocity common test worksheet.i need to do more.i will make a full answer sheet,including workings,of the amath textbook miscellaneous exercises.as for the emath textbook,i'll consider after i'm done with the former.ugh i still got the calling of the kindred to study for.there's this test on monday.AH HOMEWORK I JUST SUDDENLY THOUGHT OF THE TESTIMONIAL I GOT TO WRITE FOR MYSELF.TOMORROW'S THE DEADLINE HOW HOW HOW.i got to put a reminder on my phone.NOW.
done with the reminder.hmmm maybe i'll do it tomorrow morning or night.get it done then send the form teacher.what with her going to deduct marks for every day late.BUT THEN AGAIN,tests aren't important anyway.i failed one minor chemistry test(i forgot the topic)the other day.16/33.it's not that important anyway since i scored really well for another chemistry test(acids bases salts)lol.19/25.
my tongue's bleeding now and it hurts like crap.but i cannot seem to stop myself from aggravating it.actually i made it bleed.then i cannot seem to stop so scary.GAH I'M CONTROLLING I'M CONTROLLING!IT HAD BETTER STOP BLEEDING!i keep tasting blood!
blessed be.
I'll make everything alright
yesterday was horrendous.got really upset.i think it was mainly because of myself but oh well.i got really upset anyway.but after a whole night's sleep i got better in the morning.dun upset:)sleep den forget le:)
today was pretty okay.we finally got news of this year's graduation night.it'll be held at four seasons hotel.and by next monday/tuesday we got to pay 40S$ cash if we are signing up.the entire thing is about a hundred dollars i guess.i should be going but i have no idea what to wear and all that.crap.but at least,there's liming as well.no one can imagine her in a dress lol.
walked to the bus stop with adeline after school.then she took her bus and i met zhimin and then we both took fourteen.she's a nice girl and we talked till she had to alight.oh titus was on the bus all along and he didn't realize i was on the bus until pretty much later.he just suddenly came up to me and said hi.funny.and we talked till he had to alight.then i alighted and took bus ten home.stupid jianwen had to return my harry potter and the deathly hallows today so i had to carry it home by hand and at the same time carry my heavy sling bag.grr.
gah there's social studies common test tomorrow.i'll read up on chapter five later because i don't exactly know much about that chapter.stupid social studies test,there are both source-based and structured essays questions!and the duration is forty-five minutes!WHICH REMINDS ME SUDDENLY,i've got to hand up this chinese composition tomorrow.i better do it right after this.
by the way,i had the health screening today(actually i feel that it isn't much of a health screening)and i think my eyesight sucks.all other things are fine and my height is around 1.56 meters.we decided to fool around with the height taking equipment and a lot of people shrunk.thankfully i did not.i was around the same height.but i'm still vertically challenged!:(oh the nurses were really nice and it's like the first time the health screening nurses are nice!it's nurses day today and they were about to go to the istana for some reception(some chosen ones i think)and they were hoping it'll rain!because they didn't wanna go.so cute!they were telling us to help them pray for rain in the evening at around five.it was raining when we were having the health screening and they were kinda disappointed lol.
hmmm should i hand up the literature homework from a long time ago or not?i don't want the extra credits(don't exactly need them anyway)but i think i want to know how i'll be graded.but i didn't complete all the parts damnit!
okay got to go do the composition already.and read up on chapter five.tired tired!must sleep early today!
blessed be.
I'll make everything alright
blessed be
I'll make everything alright
:(
I'll make everything alright
i saw this today and i want to buy it.it's 33.90S$ and i really really really want it!haha and i finally got my pencil case.it's this typical myuk pencil case with "i'm not a rules kinda girl" printed on it.oh well,at least i got a pencil case.haha i had to choose one because my mum was really impatient,saying how fussy i am and all.also,i bought this file.and incidentally,there's a K printed at the top right hand corner of the file.only realized it after i got home.
GAH,i still really like that pair of shoes:D
blessed be.
I'll make everything alright
reasons why i like fridays
♥ it's the start of the weekend
♥ it means i can sleep late tonight
♥ there are lesser lessons in school
♥ there are two mathematics periods
♥ higher chinese is only a single period
♥ there are two physics period,which means i can play around with my highlighters
♥ i sometimes watch ghost whisperer
♥ i like the variety show on channel u at eight o' clock
♥ i don't get to see miss ng because there's no literature
♥ there's no social studies and geography as well
on the other hand,
reasons why i dislike fridays
♥ there's mock examination
♥ there's no more cca for me now
♥ i go home alone
♥ the first period and last period are both chemistry
♥ there's morning exercise for assembly
♥ i usually end up with not much money even if i saved up
♥ sometimes,there's physics practical(and next friday is physics spa)
♥ the seven and nine o' clock drama serial leave me hanging till next monday
♥ i gotta hear the stupid drivers at the carpark,honking at each other
blessed be.
I'll make everything alright
hmmmm...
actually i know what to get but where oh where can i buy it?
[edit]YAY i'm finally done with the chinese composition that was supposed to hand up by hook or by crook after school but no i got lazy and there was council(plus cca)investiture which lasted till three thirty!besides,there were also other people who didn't hand up.thank goodness i'm finally done with it so i can place it in her pigeon hole tomorrow morning.gosh i did it till i wanted to sleep while doing.i couldn't understand half the sentences i wrote and had to correction fluid like mad.and now my nose is drippppping.don't know why also:(
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blessed be.
I'll make everything alright
didn't wanna blog because i thought by the time i finished my ss homework,it'll be rather late.but lo and behold,I FINISHED SS!less than an hour!NO I CAN'T BELIEVE IT MYSELF EITHER.but anyhow,it's done so i shall stop thinking about ss.
OH i finally discussed harry potter today.in class with the people at the back.then a while ago with zhengyi because he finally read finish.
macbeth shall permanently stay at home(i think so.because miss ng says she's done with it),which means,i got to start studying macbeth haha.i'll see how i fared for the last literature test then decide what to do for macbeth.
i had the sudden urge to do physics just now and i did some study cards on those definitions and stuffs-some formulas as well.i did friction,newton's laws of motion,kinematics and mass,weight,density,inertia lol.kinematics shouldn't be much of a problem i hope.since it's like some amath chapter.talk about amath.we're currently doing relative velocity and it's terribly boring!
chemistry spa skill three today wasn't that bad.i don't think i screwed up.unless tripod stand is an imaginary item and it does not exist in the chemistry laboratory.thank goodness i did the physics practical worksheet on skill three over the weekends.but hopefully i didn't go all physics on the chemistry spa.my chemistry spa had some plot the graph thing.hopefully nothing goes wrong.i think i'll need my spa to help me since i'm really not good at the last few chapters,and probably the whole chemistry book as well.
seven more weeks to prelims.exactly forty-nine days.zhengyi just reminded me about o's and that i got to really start studying.i'm looking forward to the five-day holiday,only catch is that the weekend is included(cheapskate!).but it doesn't really matter.
and i've got another problem.that is the birthday present!hmmm i've got some suggestions but stilllllllll,HELP!
blessed be.
I'll make everything alright
this is the email message.
thanksgiving
didn't you wake up this morning?
can't you see this print now?
don't you hear the sounds around you now?
isn't you electricity on now?
aren't you warm now?
aren't you breathing now?
won't you eat today?
thanksgiving day is a great idea but it shuoldn't be just a day,it should be an attitude.
i am more thankful for today than i was for yesterday.you see,i've got an "and one".
this is the year "two thousand and five".
next year will be "two thousand and six".
we have been granted one more year,and "and one".
today is one more day than yesterday.it is an "and one".
the breath you are taking now is one more than the last one.
we shouldn't wait until we are in our 90's to be thankful for each additional day.i am thankful for each of them now and especially,the "and one".
if you spend only one day a year giving thanks you are missing out on 364 gifts a year.
we should have complaining day instead of thanksgiving day.
we should spend one day each year complaining and griping about the things wrong in our world.on that day we would complain about everything and everyone that we had problems with.
halloween would be a good day for that.we could all turn into monsters for just one day instead of acting and feeling ugly most of the year.
often,we spend 364 days a year complaining and one day giving thanks.
we should give thanks at least 364 days a year.
that's what i do now.i don't wait until thanksgiving day.
i have thanksgiving day all year long and i'm working on halloween.
i'd like to get rid of the one unthankful day that i have.
saying thanks each day does more than acknowledge the giver,
it makes you realize the gift.
i give thanks now for tomorrow,for it will be even more of a miracle than today,or yesterday.
so happy thanksgiving day.today!
blessed be.
I'll make everything alright
i've finished reading the seventh and final volume of the harry potter series-harry potter and the deathly hallows.it's a pretty short book compared to the previous book but it's in this book where all the mysteries fall into places.i'm really really amazed by j.k. rowling lol.and gosh i really didn't expect so many people to die in harry's quest to destroy the horcruxes and voldemort himself.haha one day after the o levels i'm so going to read the whole series all over again!j.k. rowling is one of the few authors who made me cry with a book!
gah now that i've finished reading the seventh book,i'm dying to discuss about it with someone!
anyway after i've got my hands on the book yesterday i've been trying to read it as much as i can!a pity i had to go out in the morning and then go for service and then for cell and then go visit my grandma after that otherwise i'd have finished the book yesterday!
oh yesterday jiami jie mentioned something about thanksgiving and i remembered something from somewhere in my inbox.shall post it up so i can look at it in future.it's really meaningful.
i slept up really late last night,reading the book at night on my bed in rather lousy lighting.i think i'm spoiling my eyes.thank goodness it's the last book or i'll have to get new glasses.and so i woke up today feeling really tired but really excited beacuse somehow i knew i'd finish the book today.tuition was tiring cos for the first hour i was fighting the sleepiness inside of me and the my eyes were really watery mrs yeo said i look like i'll be down with flu soon.
after tuition my parents wanted to go home.i thought they'd go buy stuffs for me which i really wanted but it was pretty troublesome so i agreed on going home.i thought it was good since i could finish off the book.well so my dad drove us to the carpark and after playing around,which means driving around the stupid carpark for ages,they decided to go out!AND I WAS LIKE STUCK IN THE CAR SO SUCKY.they went somewhere to eat and i was feeling sick and tired so i stayed in the car and slept a little.then they went to my dad's mum's.then i decided to sleep in the car again while they go off.in the end i felt a little better and read some more of the book.actually before that i tried reading a little now and then but i realized it gave me a bad headache and i felt really sick so i didn't.tuition ended at one but they made me stay out with them till my sister ended her tuition and went to aljunied for my dad to fetch her.by then,we reached home at around four.and i was glued to the book since then.read till the last part(leaving the last chapter and the epilogue)-and we had to go downstairs for dinner!
had curry fish head for dinner(talk about dinner,come to think of it,WHAT EXACTLY WAS FOR LUNCH?NOTHING!)and then we went back home and i finished off the book!FINALLY!
haha now that i've freed myself from the book,i'm wondering whether i've got homework for the weekend.there's this voice inside of me telling me to start studying soon and i guess i got to agree i really must start studying.i cannot afford to screw up.oh well there's chem spa skill three tomorrow and i dunno what's going to happen.i hope i don't screw that up and all.and back to just now,yup,i guess i got to start studying.sciences first,humanities later?i honestly have no idea.i know nuts about physics and chemistry,that is,those important chapters.hmmm maybe i should read through the physics textbook i have at home.and try the ten year series or something.chemistry can queue behind physics.OR MAYBE,i should try doing both together at the same time.GOSH I REALLY DON'T KNOW.hmmm i better do something about myself haha.
OKAY I HAVE DECIDED.PHYSICS AND CHEMISTRY TOGETHER!
blessed be.
I'll make everything alright
napfa sucks.i took a painkiller for the first time in my entire life and it so did not work.my back hurt like mad during situps,sit and reach,standing broad jump and shuttle run,which are about everything we did today.gosh i hate this.but at least i don't have to throw my rubbish,pick up my paper,carry books to and fro the locker etc. cos jianwen does everything haha.even finding my medicine from under my own desk.
but anyway i failed my shuttle run.BY ZERO POINT TWO SECONDS.I HATE NAPFA.but it doesn't matter.could have ran again but i promised meiyan i'll retake everything with her again.hopefully we don't have to retake everything,just the ones we failed(RIGHT,DREAM ON).in any case,i'll practice this whole week la.situps everyday.try to stretch also.hopefully my back won't break lol.
grr the standing broad jump has left me with a pair of painful thighs.hurts like mad.along with my back,which still hurts,more than ever:'(
which reminds me,the stupid anarex(i think)tablet sucks.yesterday i popped two pills in and then i read through macbeth.i didn't even get to reach the part macbeth became thane of cawdor i snoozed already!stupid tablet.which explains why i haven't taken it today.WHICH ALSO EXPLAINS WHY MY BACK STILL HURTS LIKE CRAP.victor recommended me this chinese doctor from geylang.then jianwen was telling me to go back to the one i went before,which happens to be his chinese doctor too.NO WAY LA.i'll see how it goes.if i'm lucky enough,i'll get to skip napfa for this year:)
chemistry test tomorrow!i wonder if anyone's studying.hopefully jolene or adeline studied:).ah fine i'll read through a little later.but i have a feeling i'll end up falling asleep like yesterday hrmmmph.
blessed be.
I'll make everything alright
what a sucky day.my back has been hurting the entire day and it just keeps getting worse!
kahwee came to class early in the morning and gave me a doughnut!yesterday her friend passed her this huge tupperware with six doughnuts in it,all in different colors.they looked so cute and so tasty!there's this doughnut craze going around.the other day miss zarinah was telling us about her going to the doughnut factory(i think that's the shop name)to queue for hours just for doughnuts!SO COOL!anyway,i commented on the doughnuts yesterday AND KAHWEE GAVE ME ONE!so sweet so sweet so sweet!i was so so so shocked omgomgomg!and the doughnut tasted great!although the strawberry jam smeared all over the plastic but still,the jam was really sweet plus the sugar and all!and plus the fact that it was so sweet of her to give it to me!AHHH SO SWEEEET!
school was okay today.i wasn't really very tired in class and all so it was good.physics lesson was funny cos we were all laughing about liming's ability to do weird stuffs lol.
after school i went home because i had nothing else to do.initially wanted to walk with adeline but her friend,hweeli,wanted to go canteen for lunch first or something.somehow i ended up walking to the bus stop with vanessa lol.anyway,this is random but i'm glad cos i never spend money today!considering the amount of money i spent on monday,i've got to save up for the rest of the week.
i called my mum to tell her i got to see a doctor in case i cannot make it for napfa tomorrow.then during the evening when she was setting up the table for dinner,i was engrossed in this book i borrowed today and then i didn't help.then when she complained,i told her my back was hurting so it was kind of troublesome.but i still helped her!AND SHE TOLD ME THAT MY BACK PAIN HAS GOT NOTHING TO DO WITH HER.damnit.it hit me pretty hard.SO HURTFUL:'(.then i went to the room and teared a little.AND MY BACK STILL HURTS SCREW IT.
oh and then she didn't tell me what time i'd go see a doctor.so i didn't bathe till sometime during the seven o clock drama.before that i asked her about it and she went all fierce and telling me that i should have bathed earlier and if i wanted to see a doctor it's like my problem etc.COME ON MY BACK HURTS LIKE MAD CAN'T SHE JUST BE NICE TO ME AND ALL.WHY IS IT THAT WHENEVER I'M DOWN AND OUT,UPSET AND ALL,EVERYONE JUST GO AGAINST ME.IS IT THAT HARD TO SOFTEN DOWN AND TALK TO ME NICELY.IT'S NOT MY FAULT I'M IN A GROUCHY MOOD COS OF MY BACK AND MY ACHING SHOULDERS,NOT TO MENTION THE STUPID PMS.AM I NOT ENTITLED,ONCE IN A WHILE,TO BE A GROUCH?I'M NOT MEAN AND NASTY WHAT.AT LEAST I DON'T THINK I AM,I GUESS:'(:'(:'(
in the end the doctor gave me medicine and a medical certificate to refrain from physical activities for a week.i'll see tomorrow.maybe before napfa,i pop in some painkillers and try to pass.at least if i fail,i have my backache to make it less bad lol.
and as if my back wasn't hurting enough,the stupid nine o clock drama made me cry a lot.of course it wasn't the only reason why i cried but oh well.thank goodness the show is ending soon.i want fann wong(whether in jeanette's body or not)to end up with shawn.
there's the vectors test and macbeth common test tomorrow.the literature test is more important(and harder to score of course)and hence,i shall go read through my book in a while.math can erm,go sleep.
oh by the way,did i mention that i've got two types of tablets.one of which i got to take two tablets per dosage.so disgusting.that particular tablet is as big as the pupil and my throat isn't really that big i think.and it's supposed to make me drowsy.i just took it and hopefully i won't read macbeth till i sleep on the sofa/bed,whichever i study on.the other tablet can go sleep with math cos i doubt i wanna take it.it's a little bigger than this one.i hate medicines.
blessed be.
I'll make everything alright
it's girls' brigade day today.reached school at around 0625.haha i set my alarm clock to ring at around five but i overslept a little.thankfully i wasn't late or anything.first period was the chinese test and it was pretty okay.
anyway,during second recess meiyan,jolene and i went down to the gb stall and raid the kacang puteh stall.haha,actually i paid for one kacang puteh.but omg the gb service tax is so much more than the government service tax!the kacang puteh used to be a dollar and now it's a dollar fifty.and the standard of the ice blended dropped!haha but i think business was pretty good though.oh ya,keane donated two dollars today!wheeeee!actually i didn't think i'd get his donation when i asked him cos he's in 3d and audrey,chelsia,debra and sheena(i think that's all lol)are all in 3d as well.wooo!lucky me:D
after school we went parade square to assemble for fifty pumpings.gosh i'm getting old and useless.fifty pumpings and my knee is like super sore.it still hurts a wee bit now:(.which reminds me,napfa this thursday!sucks!and the run is probably next week.this year we're going to run as a class.i think everyone's probably lose all motivation to run fast and just fail their napfa test.i have this ominous feeling that i'm going to fail napfa:'(.
as i was saying,the pumpings.after that baowen,kahwee and i went to deliver the presents haha.ohman ohman ohman anngi's merci chocolate is so so so so nice!I WANT CHOCOLATES!:D
oh ya,today several people braided their hair!(jieting,sihui and anngi)made me soooo jealous!i want my hair to grow faster faster faster!baowen says there's another uniform wearing chance,which is some promotion and dedication service thing.I SURE HOPE SO because by then my hair will be longer and i can get my mum to try braiding my hair.even if it fails,at least i tried!braiding the hair is so cool because at least when you take off your cap,your hair is still neat.and you don't have to go molest your hair to remove the thousand and one pins you used to pinned up those loose ends.
there's an easy(easy my fooooot i hate emath!) elementary math test on vectors(i suck at vectors)this thursday,followed by a chemistry test on organic chemistry on friday.i'll probably fail at least one of them,the chemistry test i guess lol.mrs lam practically breezed through the chapters on organic chemistry!i told miss hafizah i don't understand organic chemistry and she was like "cannot like that.organic chem is one quarter of the syllabus."(!!!!!)so disgusting right?OH and if i remember right,there's some physics test and/or physics SPA next week.the test will be on electromagnetism i think.and i totally cannot catch up with mrs tan on the electromagnetism and the induction nonsense.three weeks later there's this social studies common test as well.RARRRH!okay,i promise i'll start studying prelims by mastering practicing both my amath and emath first,followed by getting my chemistry and physics right,then memorizing the stupid humanities.ah fine,i won't think that far.BOTH MATHEMATICS FIRST!
eey i need new glasses.almost everyone that have talked to me face to face is asking me about the flaw in my glasses.i'm using my old pair,which i broke before and my dad glued back(hence the flaw).my current pair got pretty loose.i'm quite sure it's because of my dad who tried to hug(?)/provoke(?) me the other day.in any case,i gotta go get it fixed.the person will have to bend it back a little i think.but it's ok i can see fine with the old pair.and i keep the current pair in my bag anyway.
my right hand's index finger has been hurting badly these few days.HMMMM,it can't be because of destruct-o-match,can it?it'll hurt so badly i wanna chop it off damnit.and i think i'm really getting old.my back is hurting very badly now.it's on and off.like when i stand up,when i walk etc.so disgusting.oh well,if i'm lucky enough,it'll hurt so bad tomorrow i'll have to see a doctor and supply an medical certificate and excuse myself from napfa.
♥I WILL BRING HOME MY CHEMISTRY TEXTBOOK TOMORROW.
♥I WILL BRING HOME MY CHEMISTRY TEXTBOOK TOMORROW.
♥I WILL BRING HOME MY CHEMISTRY TEXTBOOK TOMORROW.
♥I WILL BRING HOME MY CHEMISTRY TEXTBOOK TOMORROW.
♥I WILL BRING HOME MY CHEMISTRY TEXTBOOK TOMORROW.
that's five times.i should be able to remember it lol.
by the way,he fetched me home today!:Dwaited for me and all.so sweet!XD
blessed be.
I'll make everything alright
what a long day!
although it's supposed to be early dismissal(1155h)because of the secondary four express chinese listening comprehension,the day passed by really slowly.especially during literature.and subsequently math(!),which was right after recess and mind you,it was two periods.mr chen kept picking on me,saying i was very noisy today and all.what nonsense.last period was english and even though it was just thirty-five minutes of sally lai,it seemed like forever!and she didn't even read through the introductions we rushed out during the previous lesson!so much for wrecking my brains to crap out something.
anyway during recess,baowen came over to 4d and told me grace and xiuhui weren't joining us anymore,which means there were only baowen,anngi and me-so pathetic!xiuhui had her 2b outing and grace got poached over by weitian to go study.which means,NO MORE HARRY POTTER MOVIE FOR ME!i was so upset because the whole day in class we talked about harry potter and i really wanted to go catch it today!in any case,after school,baowen,anngi and i wanted to leave school to go bugis already but then it was pretty much a waste of anngi's time because baowen and i merely wanted to go shop for xiuhui's present.so anngi left with deborah instead.
we went bugis and found xiuhui's present-this black wallet.and then we bought anngi's present as well-merci,the BIG box!and baowen bought her present for sihui-some handphone pouch from the wallet shop.all three presents are belated lol!
OH,after i was so upset about not watching harry potter,my he came over to bugis to find me,just in time before baowen left us.AND WE WATCHED HARRY POTTER!:D
i watched harry potter today!:D:D:D
like what jolene said,it seemed like a pretty short movie.fast-paced,i would say.and evanna lynch(luna lovegood)rocks my socks.she's so pretty i'm falling in love with her(!).and then there's tom felton(draco malfoy),who appeared less than ten times in the entire movie which is just so upsetting cos he's got this really pretty face and all.and of course,ron and hermione were,in my opinion,flirting with each other throughout the show and all.i remember twice they wore striped shirts together in the show.and the shirts weren't repeated some more!so cute loving!and harry kissed cho chang under the mistletoe omg that's supposed to be like so romantic but wth,cho chang?!(i honestly think she's not very very pretty,like she's supposed to be in the book)oh by the way,daniel radcliffe is vertically challenged(look at matthew lewis(neville longbottom)!).
ah it's girls' brigade day tomorrow.which means full uniform,polished boots and a whole day of agony in the gb uniform.SCHOOL ENDS AT THREE TOMORROW.got to go pack my bag later.pack the change of clothes and stuffs.and jianwen just smsed me about some physics test.OH NO LET IT NOT BE TOMORROW PLEASE!there's already a chinese test!
and finally,before i end off this long entry,good news!today,i got donations,follwing the two dollars from jianwen last friday.
♥ me(yes,me):two dollars(bit by bit makes it less taxing)
♥ alvin:two dollars
♥ jolene and adeline:one dollar each
♥ glenn:two dollars(during recess)
♥ binli and michael:1 dollar each(after school)
yay!
blessed be.
I'll make everything alright
blessed be.
I'll make everything alright
I LOVE THE A-NI-MA-NI-ACS THEY'RE LIKE SO CUTE SO FUNNY SO WACKY SO LOVABLE SO (insert everything positive in caps here)!!!
i was late for tuition today.got scolded by dad for nothing.then they fetched me a tad too early and i missed my chance to see him.(THIS SUCKS MY DAD TRIED TO LOOK AT ME BLOGGING GRRRRRRRRRR.)and it's all my sister's fault:Z.she skipped tuition for some project at her friend's house at potong pasir(!) then after that everyone in the group backed out except for my sister and the friend.so in the end my mum got mad and told her she should jolly well back out since she had tuition in the first place.so they had nothing to do and so they went to my tuition place and waited for me grr.blahblahblah.
my parents brought us to han's(cos it's near my sister's friend's house)for lunch.i ate some lousy spaghetti.can't blame me cos i just had good ol' pastamania spaghetti yesterday.
just now,dad suggested fetching my sister then we all dine at some foodplace at that area.no way man.it's like a waste of my time!and besides,my mum wasn't for the idea as well.now mum's downstairs buying me and grandpa food while dad's waiting for her downstairs to go fetch my sister.
and before they left my dad was "warning" me about the computer.RARRH IT'S NOT LIKE I'M PLAYING NON-STOP OR ANYTHING.come on,look who's the one addicted to playing kou-jong on neopets.YES,IT'S HIM.pot calling the kettle black hrmmmph.
blessed be.
I'll make everything alright
